Mike left to move to indiana this morning. This has honestly been the worst day..ever. It's been so hard without him lately. All I can bring myself to do is cry. It just hurts so bad being without the one person that loves you more than anything. It makes me sick just to think about how he wont be here. How I cant wake up and call him and ask him to come over. How I cant drive down the street to see him.

I cry and cry and cry. and then I sit here and I think im okay, until I think about him being gone and then I cry again. I know it may sound pathetic. but he's my everything. For the past 8 months I havent done ANYTHING by myself. I have always been able to have him by my side. and this is the first time in 8 months that Ill have to learn to do things without him, and I dont want to learn how to do that.

My birthday is in 23 days, and all I want is to go to fort wayne and spend it with him. Thats all. I want nothing else but to be in his arms ON MY BDAY. not after it. ON IT. I don't think anybody besides him & I really know how bad this hurts. Its tearing me apart, but Im trying to be strong for us. It's really hard, but Im doing my best.


God took my other half away from me. :*o(


anyways..I'm gonna go find something to keep me occupied for a while before I go to bed.

Love.♥

so, us springfield-ians, had one hell of a tornado..or well okay, tornados sunday night. it sucked hardcore,and i cried because i was scared. aha. but nonetheless, my house didnt sustain major damage, although we have major water damage to the basement, our roof is shingle-ess, and we lost some siding, our patio furniture is..probably somewhere other than on my patio, and..my dads car has little hail dents all over the place,everything in our basement is a total loss, but everybodys alive and thats all i can really ask for, everything else can be replaced.